Have you ever been in a spot where you had a moment in time where you would rise up and meet the challenge. As in Rocky, he could have given up or not even fought, but he overcame fear, and other factors to persevere.
Tell me your story of where you overcame fear or other factors to win in the end.
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This happened to me today on 4-28-09. Over the past 6 to 8 weeks I have been praying for my boss. He is always angry, over stressed, and hateful. So I have been asking GOD for him to find peace. Well today as I was praying while I was walking around at work, I asked GOD again what I should do about my boss. he last two days he has been more hateful than normal. I asked GOD how am I suppose to handle this because I was tired of him hating on me.
Well GOD answered. He told me to go to him and ask him how I can prayer for him in a specific way. I was not thrilled with this answer. So I asked GOD again if he was sure that he wanted ME to do this. Again he told me to go to him.
So before I went to him I was sitting down taking a break when a co-worker came up to me and started talking to me about what I was reading. By the way it was the BIBLE. So I told her that I was reading in the book of Mark. She told me that she does not believe in Christ. God has given me the chance to share the Gospel with her. By the time I was done I had made great progress, and I think that I had planted the seed to help her come to know HIM.
So after that I was really pumped and then I went and talked to my boss about what GOD told me too. To my surprise the meeting went really well and he opened up to me about his faith and the problem he has at work and how I can help him. The stress level in the office went from a high level to a very low level.
This was my moment in time in which I overcame fear and had faith that GOD would give me the words I would need to not only share the Gospel, but also to reach my boss on a totally different level than I think anybody has done at work.
Boromir
amazing story, bruther.
i love how you asked if GOD was sure that He wanted you to do this.
very funny.
yet very real.
anyways, i am honored to read your journey over the past 6-8 weeks.
thanksgiving for allowing us readers into the depths of your inner self.
as you broke the wall of fear, it's it odd that the wall is sometimes only an inch thick. often i thought it was several feet in thickness.
boromir, you are a mighty warrior.
today you discovered this to be true. use these two victories to propel you deeper into the war we were born into.
you are an OVERCOMER.
WELL SUNDAY I OVERCAME THE FEAR OF ASKING MY FIANCE IF SHE WAS WILLING FOR ME TO SHARE MY STORY.
ITS THE STORY OF PORN.
sad , huh? sad that i allowed and chose on purpose to place satan on the throne of my heart, all the while i declared on the outside that JESUS is my LORD.
my fiance said yes.
my declaration of independence took place in aug 2005.
now, through colonial , i am about to put my story in a video that will be seen by about a thousand people.
most of whom i don't know.
what's worse is knowing in about 3 days i will tell my 3 kids that i lived a double life.
yuck!!!!!!!!!!!
i'll keep ya informed on this MOMENT.
I've been fighting my fight since October 31st, 1999. Long time to fight. That is the day my daughter died, the day I THOUGHT I would be broken forever. I went back and forth between believing, not believing; hating God, hating myself, guilting myself, years of suicidal depression. I swallowed it all under a cold smile and became angrier every day. I hid so much to appear normal that I did not know that it was destroying me, destroying my marriage. How funny is it... a weekend changed my life. My marriage had already been stressed. I found out on a Friday night that my husband was still speaking with a lady that worked with us several years ago that had a crush on him and he had asked her to lunch and they had flirted back and forth. I didn't know what to do, I thought I was going to have a panic attack in the middle of the living room, in the middle of the night. I called a friend for help in speaking to John because I was not quite sure what to say to him. I was hurt, confused, out of breath. I don't think I slept more than 3 hours that night. I just prayed for words. By morning words did come and I had a conversation with John but knew that it had to continue because he still seemed confused. I realized later that before I could face John at lunch that day I needed to forgive myself of all the guilt I had carried for the last ten years. Not an easy task. I did NOT want to let it go. As I did let it go I felt the cloud of anger lift from me and I have not felt it again since. I could see things with a clarity I never had before. Over the last 3 days we have had numberous conversations and our relationship has blossomed spiritually and physically. I can not explain this transformation. It is something I have prayed for thinking all the time it was lost. It was not lost, it just takes work.
girlintheroom:
You are right and I know how you feel. When that cloud is gone it really brings a calmness to you. I am happy that you shared you feelings and how you have now not only forgiven yourself, but also your husband
Samwise:
I look forward to how this turns out. I think telling your story will not only be good for you but also you knew that this day would come to tell your kids. That will be hardest part to this story, but I know you and you will overcome.
there is more to my story too samwise.. more that i haven't told. I too have struggled with porn and sex... it is not just men that carry this struggle. i long used it for comfort when i was very depressed, when i was clutched and didn't know any other way of release.
what courage, girlintheroom.
i find that if one will open their deep wounds, the nasty little secrets, then all of a sudden it's easier to be the second one to do it.
question: would you have revealed this without my post?
just curious?
either way, i am most proud of your bravery.
update:
i recieved confirmation about shooting my journey video.
i will do this monday, may 11.
i was ready to tell the regulators, (my kiddos), tonight, but my fiance would like me to research some info on HOW TO TELL YOUR KIDS YOU WERE ADDICTED TO PORN.
so, now i am researching.
not much luck so far though.
btw, boromir, i'm sure i'll be tagged with high scores on my COVENANT EYES REPORT for april 29.
searching for the above PORN TALK will most likely ding me big time.
I think maybe eventually but not as soon, I don't know... It is something I have NEEDED to tell for a long time. Something I have held inside that has taken a toll on me. even though I had already asked God for forgiveness, I still feel the hurt, you know? Perhaps opening up will bring some healing I have not had.
speaking of feeling the hurt.
yeah, oh yeah, i feel the hurt.
i found myself, laying in bed, with tears slowly flowing from my orbs.
orbs???
just wanted to slow the drama.
anyways, i found myself remembering how much pain i caused my fiance.
how i shot her in the back with my ugly, with my dark, muddy, sewage infested heart.
i still feel the pain. i know she does too.
I have spent a lot of energy and a lot of tears trying to repair the hurt I have caused to my husband and to myself. I will do whatever it takes to keep rebuilding our marriage.
... I did not plan this but I closed up the store with 2 adults tonight instead of teenagers, they happened to bring up the subject and ask me what I thought, perfect timing right!? So I decided that instead of hiding I would just tell them what my experience had been. The woman laughed at me (big confidence boost there) but the man said hey, it's okay, I understand, and I won't laugh you off. I've done it too. Then he shared his story with me. I guess I needed that also.
as i was reading the post on how porn tears people up, porn had a big part in tearing up my marriage. after my divorce, a lady friend of mine and I kinda started seeing each other. I was still looking at porn while trying to find God. Lets just say that life didnt get any easier. As i had hard moments in my life during and after my divorce, I would turn to this lady friend on mine. She was and still is someone I care dearly about. I would go to her house or she would come to mine espically during the hard times in life. while with her, i would drink and we would have sex. so girlintheroom, I just wanted to let you know from a males point of view, I to have and still struggle with porn and sex even though it has caused some major, very difficult life changes for me.
Thank you very much for sharing what you are going through. Know that through Christ comes great healing and great strength. Know that it will be difficult...plan on it. But it will be worth it. Temptation is everywhere and it never stops. I find myself redirecting my attention almost daily. But I know now that I have a clear focus. It took me a while to get there. Don't stop seeking God, He is simply waiting for you to ask.. please forgive me.
anonymous, you are one of the bravest guys i know.
to admit your ugly for others to read is huge.
i am proud you even made girlintheroom feel not alone in the struggle.
you are closer to the God you want to be in charge. you're closer because you see the distance.
hang in there, and please continue to blog with us.
btw, girlintheroom thanksgiving to you for encouraging anonymous
today's challenge deals with the SLOW DEATH of my dad.
he currently is in a semi-coma.
it is awkward.
wierd thing is that when his breathes began to happen about once every 40 seconds, my family flipped out.
i am at peace. my sis, and relatives apparently are NOT. my grandma, bless her, she is amazing, but she wanted a priest to come give him his RITES.
i told my sis, that dad isn't catholic and doesn't need them anyways. maybe it isn't for catholics or isn't just for catholics.
anyway, i yeiled and went along. i ended up praying over him, with the entire family encircled.
after saying "AMEN"
you would've thought i was billy graham. anyways, i am glad they felt better.
who would know that my dad would die later that night when grandma requested the LAST RITES to be given.
bigtime THANKSGIVING TO HOSPICE.
my dad went down for the count...
his ROCKY drama is over now.
he fought cancer 4 different times.
the first 3 , he had to deal with hearing the doctor say, "Sorry, John, we thought we got it all, but it's still there..."
my dad fought hard. he was good at the office. most respected as i learned during the funeral.
my dad fought hard. he was good with the extended family. most revered as i heard over and over from my family members.
however, dad didn't fight well when it came to what i see as the most important fight of all...
MARRIAGE.
BUT, HE DID ACCOMPLISH TWO THINGS WHEN HE DIED.
he finally mastered the TILL DEATH DO US PART.
and he DIDN'T DIE ALONE...
i love you , dad.
Here is the rest of the story from my first post.
Since April 28th my boss and I have had a wonderful working environment, we have shown mutural respect for each other and he has gone to BAT so to speak in my honor. SO as you can see that going to the person who you dislike the most and ask them how you can pray for them can have positive results.
I will let you know soon how things are still going, and if anything has changed
i wonder if i went up to someone and asked , how may i pray for you?
i wonder what is the percentage that they would take it wrong.
either way, boromir, keep it up and keep us posted.
i'm sure satan's personal demon for you is preparing his next attack on your credibility.
be alert!!!
I wish I would have read this before today's move of John house. Because I got a ticket on the way home from his house today. So I guess Satan attacked me where I am my weakest. It was with my faith and now it is in my pocket book. Let's see how this story turns out!!
how do you think it will turn out?
do you think GOD will send you the amount of the ticket in some unexpected way?
or what?
what do you predict, bruther?
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